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 I miss you, I'll never forget you. Hey, I'm Estelle, ends with a Teh. I'm definitely an ass, with brains. I don't love books, but words, Got what I mean? No :D I'm random, epic failure and success, weirdo, who goes POP! :D I love my guitar, 060310!♥, My best buddy whenever I'm upset. I don't bite/bark, I'm friendly! :) I love Boys Like Girl, Paramore and Secondhand Serenade, and I love my band. My biggest dream, yet deepest nightmare is LOVE.
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Bitch.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
You force me to do this. I officially announced that I had never know you before. It's you who didn't treat me as a friend. Doing things behind my back huh. Nice. I read it all, and I realised, you didn't treat me as a friend huh. Worse still, do things behind my back, WHOA, what an GOOD friend I have -.- I'll treat it as i didn't know you from the start. I don't know who you are. I don't know what the hell have you done. I don't give a motherf*ing shit to you. Because you had never treat me a friend. Haven't you inflict enough to me? Haven't you? Please, stop it. I had enough. It will be like you had never exist in my world. I had never trust you, I had never seen you. Ya, very funny. You're hurt, you're pretending. How about all these while those things you hide from me? I'm suffering more than you do. I had never been so hurt by a friend before, somemore is it when i trusted you. I was wrong, you ain't a good listener. Just a person who knows how to laugh at others when they're down. AM I RIGHT? I might be wrong about you. But all these things that happen proves something about you. You don't care about FRIENDSHIP. So shut your big fat mouth up and listen. I DON'T KNOW YOU. That's gonna be my ONE LAST POST about you. Like it anot, go ahead. Text me. My number is still with you. But let me tell you this, You can get me upset anymore, I'm angry at you. I kept thinking about you, all these while BITCH. I got upset, and asked why did you even hurt me as a friend? Now I knew the answer. I got so hurt that I didn't want to trust anymore friends. And it's because of what you did. And it's 100% sure that you inflicted the most hurt to me. I know you will get hurt in this post. But I want you to use your brain and think. What you did was right? Do you think so? I want you to feel how hurt i were, the other time. And it's still bothering me now! Sucker. I called you Bitch because you're a acting like one. Even Potz agreed with me. I'll keep this post for a few days. I'll keep this post just for you to open your eyes bigbig and see! Lucky I ain't the same school as you. Or I'll really ignore you like shitz. Major Loser man you. Such an asshole. Back off man, I don't like you. You dare to come nearer, I'll bite, and I mean it. I'm super friendly, but if you dare to do anything, don't blame me for being nasty. Your sly smile, ya, slut! Your motive is frigging obvious, whatever shitz. I don't give a damn to you. Hihihi, whatever shitz. Stop hi-ing me. I won't reply anything but just a bitch word, get it? I never had a GAN like you. Hurt is it? Cry luh. You know why? You should ask instead how much tears I've wasted on you. I've wasted damn frigging don't-know-how-much tears on you. Just a GAN and a trusted good friend. Shervel and Pearllynn know only, shhhhh! Ya, friends. what if someone you trusted did the same. You're be crying like nobody's f*king business, right? I hope you'll get your retribution. Goes to you. Okay, skipskip, hmm. I bling my MP4 player :D RAINBOW! (L) Bling leh, Potzzzz! :D Tomorrow is Zone thanksgiving, not sure what to wear but yeah. Hmm, well, didn't went for CG Chalet. No consent form, ARGH. There's counillor meeting tomorrow, and I'm down with a strong flu + cough + sorethroat. Nice. Very nice. Longest post ever I think. Stupidity.
Monday, December 28, 2009
I'm becoming more attitude. I think i'm so angry at school. Because I don't wanna go school. I hate school, can't you see that HATE word there. Love legacy thing is like BULLSHIT. How can it ever happen? In this world, it's that cruel. Bitch! I don't like you. I DON'T LIKE YOU. UNDERSTAND? When you see me anywhere, don't call me. Don't even text me, don't even msn, don't even call me. Or don't even leave a tag. I don't hate you, but I'll treat it as you had never exist in my world. You had never been my friend. That's all. I tend to have this feeling that i need to be more selfish. NOT SELFLESS. This is what my friends says. But I'm a selfless person, I can't. SCHOOLS' STARTING -.-
I don't know why. Why am I so angry that i would scold vulgarities? Estelle, stop vulgarities already. Please! I think it's because of that bitch. Hais, what to do? HAISHAIS, what can I do? HAISHAISHAIS, SHUT UP YOU THIS BITCH. I don't want to see you. I don't want to hate you. But I'm afraid I'll get hurt. It's that i can't love you, Loser. It's i don't wanna get hurt, understand? I..don'tknow. Why must this old sickness hinder me? Please, just go away, problem. Why am I always expecting a rainbow without rain? ARGH! I'm still in my LALALAND i guess? Snap, wake up! But I can't, I'm surrounded by emotions. ARGH! People, mind me. School's starting, PIECE OF SHIT, ONCE AGAIN. I'm doing things alone. I've changed, I'm not the past estelle anymore. I won't get any closr to anybody. I won't get myself involved in most stuff. Leave me alone, time seems to take forever. I NEED TIME. Workout + Service
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Currently, In a music mood.Hey, "Friend" I'll forgive you for the sake of myself. I don't want to hate. Went for a jog, Phew, Stamina still quite good man. Hmm, service today too. Great! :D Well, I'll end my year without hatred. I didn't leave a tagboard because I don't like comments. I don't know why, I became like that. Argh! Had a nice workout tomorrow, I think. Paiseh, Terecia makes me jealous. She got a RED Heratbeats earpiece -.- P.s, Imissyou :( Paperhearts, Estelle. Bimbo.
Saturday, December 26, 2009
Back.I'm stupid. I'm dumb. I'm crazy. I'm blur. Happy with this answer? 24th December was a great day, spend my day out with Baby. Well, got bomb some freaks though. Hmm, thanks for the present, Iloveyou. Cried the wholenight till I sleep yesterday. My eyes are red and sore this morning. That I can hardly open my eyes. What's wrong with me people, tell me! School's starting, PIECE OF SHIT. I DON'T WANNA GO SCHOOL. Can I drop out? SOMEWHERE
Thursday, December 24, 2009
CATCH ME SOMEWHERE ELSE, WHERE YOU CAN ONLY FIND ME AND YOU. HOHOHO! ASK IF YOU EVEN BOTHER, HEHE. Only a few of you know, so shhhhhhhh! Will be back in a while or later? //Editted. What had happen to me? My mind is controlling me. I can't stop it anymore. I can't stop. This skin is a twin skin with Pearllynn, I won't change it. Till we find a good rainbow skin. Maybe M&M? LOVAAAAAAAAHOLICCCCCCS. Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Upset. Potz and I are feeling down. I don't know how to help myself. But I could help her. Lend me a shoulder to cry on, please. I'm tired, very sick and tired of life. Can anyone hear me? Shervel,
Having a funny conversation with SweeteyTwinny, Shervel! :D Talking about people "twitting" we were like, wass up with the eg. i hate you , bitch . ! space dot space . We were like, why not twit in every a l p h a b e t like that. Gonna miss her like hell! Because she's going Malaysia. Hearts her many :) 2.17am, Wednesday. I need a shoulder. Finally, I'm scolding this BITCH word out of my mouth. I don't think you deserve my respect. Doing things behind my back. Hypocrites, trying to be good in front of me, but behind my back, you do ridiculous things. *ahem* I don't like to see you. I don't want to see you. It pains me, because it's like a knife that stab through' Stop finding me, please! I don't like the way you do things. Go away, I shall treat it as you are never once my friend. I didn't mean to hurt you but it's you who hurt me first. I'm just going a tic for a tac. Heartbeats crazy again.
Tuesday, December 22, 2009
  I prefer the black cable. I hope it won't run out of stock so soon, it's only gonna be 100 sets. (Limited) And I'll need to get from other countries. It's worth the price, 240. Should I even buy? I should, it worth the price, like i say just now. I went to see, it comes with a Heartbeats casing, it's so uber cool! Chatting with Shervel'SweeteyTwinny on MSN! :D I love her to the max! (L) Sorry, Potz, drifted away from you. Talk to you more often. I may be spendthrift, but this is definitely worth Heartbeats crazy
  P/SP/S, I want HEARTBEATS! I don't care! Christmasssssssss! Buy me thisssssssss! (Impossible, it cost like 240 dollars) OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGO MGOMGOMGOGMOGMOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG! I love it! I love it, howhowhow?! No money?!?!?!?!? :( //Editted. I WANT THIS, OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG! I'm in love with that earpiece. I want it, GOSH! Worth the price luh! HEARTBEATS!
The moment I see you, I puke, please! I bought Christmas Presents. Going back to school tomorrow at 7am for Sec 1 orientation. Sheena, my sister got into boonlay! :D Happy! :D Looking at how noob my past is. P/s, I'm looking back at my P6 and this year Jan - June. I changed alot! (thumbsup) Crude hor?!?!?! I got a compliment here. When my long time no see aunty first saw me, She thought my mum gave birth to an ANGMOH! Indirectly, I'm saying she's complimenting me, because she thought I was an angmoh. Enough of that, estelle. Anyway, I was thinking about this "friend" of mine. If you are a friend, I would rather not have a friend like you. Stop doing things behind my back. Pissed off at you, *ahem* it's a name. Goodbye. Heartbeats SANTA
Monday, December 21, 2009
Why do humans have emotions?I don't call you bitch because I respect you as a friend. I normally won't call people bitch. Shervel, Cuteytwinny's here! :D I'm always here for you, put a big wide smile. I hearts you many! Bought a necklace for my Wendy! Cost 200+ T_T Money gone. It's her wedding + christmas gift! She was so happy when she recieved my message. & she gave me a call. She was so elated, & scream! I was dumbfounded man! Skipskip, I wanna meet SHERVEL! VELVEL, free must tell me hor, sweetey! :D Service,
Sunday, December 20, 2009
Love that cute little boy name Joshua!Lurbchuberimush. Went orchard, saw this huge tree with crystals inside. I was shocked, so pretty! Afterwhich, we went to 'THAT CD SHOP' Damn cool, I tell you! 2 levels, with soundproof floor, shiokz! Walked, & my leg is aching because of heels. Shingz! Starbucks! I like that FudgyChocolateyCakey! (something like that) P/s, I rst because my leg's aching like crazy! Afterwhich headed off to i-don't-know-where. Forum plaza or something, I love it, branded labels. Mum, I want I want I wantttttteteteter itttter! Back to Ion & River Island rocks my socks, heels were so pretteh! Bus-ed home & to be continued. Went for service today, Boomz! I love the candles! So pretty, second time which is 2 years in YOUTHSERVICE. I love it, & I got one in my bag, because very prettehhhhhhhh! Lunched with Xinyee(Lovergirl), David(MachoMan), Jingzhou(Laoahgong). Afterwhich, I headed to the barber & do my hair again. because it curled up. Back home, HOME SWEET HOME! :D 91 more to go. I slept at 5am yesterday. I told SANTAAAA... "Nice" Lady, ya right!
I'm writing about a person today. I'm just letting my fustrations off. Shervel, You're the only one who know, so shhhhhh! You this, 'nice' person. I treated you as a best friend. Betrayed my trust & get evens on me. I don't like the way you try to do things. What do you want from me?! I ask you! I'm being very nice here already, if not i would have call you a bitch, slut, or whatsoever. Your motive so so damn obvious, PLEASE! I trusted you, I meet you up, I talk to you, I text & call you. You got so happy when I was upset, what a good friend man! Screw it, i shouldn't have even trust you. People said that you're a good listener, good friend, true friend, but I don't think so. I don't know how am I gonna slap you right in front of your face, because I'll be so boiling mad that I'll take a knife & kill you. *ahem**ahem**ahem*, guess this?! SHERVEL, once again, shhhhhh! You still wanna hide the truth from me, is it? You still wanna do things behind my back, is it? You still wanna treat me as a friend huh? If you treat me as a friend, please kindly shut your mouth up! & stop doing anything stupid behind my back. I don't wanna get hurt by YOU, my friend! P/s, I'm angry at *ahem* I don't get angry at people easily & ticked them off my blog. I don't, but I do it, just for you & Jessica, once. YOUYOUYOU! Go back home to your MAMA & think carefully. Doing this is right, I don't mind to get my head in the game. FROM NOW ON, I'M NOT GONNA TRUST FRIENDS ANYMORE! FRIENDS, YOU GET WHAT I MEAN?! TIME BY TIME, I BELIEVE THERE'S GONNA BE A TRUE FRIEND. THERE'S ONLY TWO, WHICH I CAN TRUST THE MOST. PEARLLYNN & SHERVEL. P/s, it's friend. I trust boyfriend. Tyvm. &&& Jessica, cheerup! You & your guy is gonna last. So what if she gets to know the guy first? You still take the lead, he love you & you love him. The girl is just a thirdparty trying to get in. Work things out if the feeling had fade away. Trust him, Jessica. I couldn't stop myself, my head is aching, real badly. Christmas!
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Alicia.C'Hubby stayed over, I think she's sleeping O_OWell, we went out of the house at 3. And went to 7-11 & buy food. Headed to somewhere else, eat & chat. Walked to PioneerMall & bought Pizza bar. Cab home. Was fun with her, playing like crazy! She's my best friend during Primary6! *Thumbsup* :D P/s, any presents during christmas? I want want want, YOU! Plushies, Roses&Sunflower, Ipod, pleaspleasplease! Snow, More clothes(I must), Sushi(: (Mum said she'll bring me go but didn't) Ice-cream, Starbucks Coffee, alot more. Ask me personally. I can't wait for Christmas, I want to have a exciting yet memorable christmas ever! I am troubled? Anyone there to hear me? P/s
Friday, December 18, 2009
P/s, Jessica you shingz! P/s, I'm bored. P/s, Listening to One time. P/s, someone entertain me, please! Guess what? Mr Eric entertained me for quite a long time. Interesting chat! Talking Gaga for awhile, P/s. PEARLLYNN'S GOING OVERSEA! Stupid man, why go overseas? T_T I'll miss crapping with her. Discouraged.
Discouraged.Can anyone hear me? I thought I could trust you, but ended up you called me, stupid. I'm stupid, I know. But yet, it was from you. The person I trusted the most. Go for all you want, Don't come back anymore. I don't wanna see you. I don't know what's going on. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to make myself smile. I don't know EVERYTHING! Shervel
Thursday, December 17, 2009
Had a great chat with,Shervel! My sweety twinny! Well, it was a great chat! Haha! :D Hearts to hearts chat, I guess? Honoured! :) Adores & Dislikes.
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Okay, people. I think I needa write a longlost of stuff. Adores: (Things I like, & like to do.) Music, R&B, Pop culture, Headphone(OMG), Blowing my speakers up, Lyrics, Piano, Lady Gaga(CRAZY), Boys like Girls, Estelle(She's HOT), Justin Bieber, Beyonce, Photography, Frames, M&M, Red wine chocolate, Ice wine(It's cold), Stars, Crapping, Doing stupid stunts, Diabolo, Plushies(CUTE), Shopping, Joking&Hearts talking with Potz!, Talk on the phone, Hugs, Paperhearts that I made, Pens, Pencils, Camwhoring, WEBCAM!, Schoolbag, Popping up M&M bottles, Cycling, Rollerblading, Ice-skating(LONGTIMEAGO), Drama, Drums, Shopping, Going out, My Uncle's PUBBBBBB(Esp the red wine). (IT DOESN'T STOP HERE, JUST TO WARN YOU, I HAVE ALOT.) Swing, Merry-Go-Round, See-saw, Playground, Milktea, Ben&Jerry's Ice-cream, Brocolli, (I do eat veggies!), Shouting at BO on the phone, Laughing with my mum, Rainbow!, Rollercoaster(Bring me to sit on one, one day, MUM!), Staring at the ceiling, Going crazy & irritating in a shopping centre, (gives you a hint, never to bring me go shopping.) Texting & being lame on text messages, MALAYSIA(I love it), (MUM, you're gonna bring me there someday right?!?! :P)Roses, Sunflowers, Blackforest cake, Truffles, Singing in a club, Dance till dawn with RAH right?!?!, Sunrise & Sunset, Citylights, Retro stuff, my notebook, Blueberry pies, Strawberries,Framing up stuff, ETC. Okay, I have alot, serious, this is like 1/6 of it. I don't think people have the patience to read it, because I dislike stuff Dislikes: (It's just me dislike, not hate) Actually not much, Hmm, Backstabbers, Betrayers, School, Sleeping early, (I have to :(, turn back to a normal human timing.), Phone ringing when I get creeped up, Being scared by people, hmm, not much. Because I hardly dislike :) Well, I got inspired by my SENIOR. Shichun, was wanting to write all these on my blog. Well, Hmm, ROLL THE CREDITS! SHICHUN! :D P/S, mind the crude words, anyways, had a long conversation with, JESSICA. J: Oh my fucking goodness gracious! Holy Mama! I saw you. E: Chill, can?!?!? Where? J: Ain't I whacking your ass, turn back! *WHACKS MY ASS* (She walked away) E: Frigging Gosh! why you're here? Can don't whack my ass anot?! so embarassing. J: You don't mind getting whack by HOT TEXAS GUYS RIGHT?! E: But not you! Bitchwhore + a slut. J: Okay, lax! I'm just playing, you little olympus camera. E: Then you're so effortlessly smart CANON camera huh. J: Yaah, um, i think taylor lautner's body is HOT & SEXY. E: Please?!?! Who says he's not the hottest guys in towns. J: Compare him to HOT TEXAS GUYS & who better? E: You're really some jerkkkk! Frigging angry. How can you compare him to texas guys? He's like HOT?!?! J: That's why I asked you to compare ._. E: Oh, shutup will you? J: Fine, lax! Doing some shopping? E: -.- You're really a cock eyed "hot" girls. isn't it obvious with those labels on carriers? J: I think I need to get my brain, eye, nose, mouth & everything checked. E: WAIT! you need to check whether you have a vagina, (Evil) J: WHAT THE FUCKKKKKKK! You're horny. E: No, I'm not. I'm just being funny. & I love you luh, my MAMAass! -stops- Cool right?! :P Childish mind
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Feeling so grouchy.Guess my life is just a boring life. I don't fit to be a human, Life is so unfair. I realised, I'm childish. Like what my true friend said. It's just a fear in myself. If I don't break it, I'm going to be like this forever. Shopaholics.
I need a twist in my life. If you get what i mean. If you don't get it, feel free to ask. Gosh! Recently caught up with some memories in Xingnan, if I compare it to secondary school. I do miss 6A, at times. Especially those times with the guys & girls we go crazy like mad! Denise don't seem to recognized me, hmm. MSN with Shichun recently. HOHO. I'm not gonna update my blog that often. Boring life, agree with me, PEOPLE! I've got nothing to do, might be shopping later on. WTH, SOMEONE GOT A TATTOOOOOOO! I won't tell you who, so envious. Obviously it's someone that all of my friends don't know. Don't you people agree with me that tattoos are cool?! :D I wanna get one, but I'm scared. Permanent tattoo! Esp LADY GAGA's tattoo, damn cool! If you ever see Lady Gaga's tattoo, then you comment. If you don't, just shhhhuttttyourmouthhhhupppp! :P Well, I wanna go shoppingggggg withhhhhh POTZ! Broke rightttttt?!?! I have like 300++ Christmas sales! 10 more days, I'm going shopping! NOWNOWNOW! Early admission
Monday, December 14, 2009
I really couldn't wait, Early admission, please. I'm gonna wait for the early admission! Jamming on the keyboard right now. Well, I don't feel like studying anymore. I wanna drop out of school! Okay, shut your ass up, estelle. This is like sosososo impossible? Early admission! Pleaseplease. I pray that I can appeal! Appeal success! Then I can have early admission at the age of 14. LOL! If you all don't know what's early admission, can ask me! :D OMGOMGOMG, I can't wait for early admission. I wanna break free this dumbass studying life manzxzxzxzxzx. Compose songs, singing & dancing is really my passion. THE ENERGY NEVER DIES BY BLACKEYEDPEAS! The fire that burns for music, really burning Breakthrough,
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Pissed off.Well, I'm using my BEAR's laptop. I won't tell you who. Hmm, bored. WHAT AM I?! CONTINUE BEING THIS WAY, YOU'LL DRIFT FROM GOD Really. I'm spiritually dry up. Today's service was empowering, & after so many 123456789 million years, I saw PEARLLYNNPOTZ! Miss her yaw. Well, Estelle, full fast tomorrow, don't go out. I'm gonna pray till my flesh is tired. Till I can abundant everything fully. Breakthrough, I got to pray till I got a breakthrough. Okay, Well, guess what? I'm learning piano. Gosh! I'm gonna learn to play & compose songs. My passion for music always with me, it never dies. But like that fire raging. I'm really that on fire for music & GOD. Might go MIA for a few days. I'm washing out photos on tuesday, paste in my room, WOOTS! Goodbye. Tagboard is back
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Hey, readers. I realised something, it seems missing something. So added a new tagboard, do tag. Well, thanks for reading with "talking" all these while. Especially to my daily readers. Only a few bother to read. And shall I close down my blog? No one is reading already. Pearllynn Potz! I miss her! She had gone through everything, that I go thru' We suffered and see the ugliness of this world. Everything isn't as beautiful as I thought. Pearllynn, I'm willing to share your burdens. Just a call, Just a message, Just a saying. I'll be there for you, to hear your crying. You had hear my crying, you had hear me screaming, I'm here. You had show me that in this world, it's not only me crying, there's someone with me. -Potz, loves! I'm lack of prayer, I need to pray even more. What had happened to me?! I need prayer, revelation, breakthrough & fasting. I need to keep that fire burning inside me. I wanna go for candlelight service! Christmas is coming! Mr Cutez & Potz stuff.
Friday, December 11, 2009
How am I gonna start it, my post?Hmm, supposingly meeting up with PearllynnPotz. But I bombed her. Because I got grounded. I'm sorry, Potz. Let's meet up either Thursday or Friday? Anyways, today was bored. So decided to webvcam with MR CUTE! (L) And it's like so funnyyyyyyyyyy. We webcamewhoring like crazy people. Okay, crapz! Now I get into the main point. Lunch was horrible, my cooking taste great, but kinda too bland. *Puke* Okay, Teeth by Lady Gaga seems greatttt! Pearllynn, let's look forward to our eternal freedom! We'll do it together! Potz. Cheers.
Thursday, December 10, 2009
I'm stuck up with Russian Roulette by Rihanna.Thought I don't really like her. There's a comment in youtube saying, How can Lady Gaga be compared to Rihanna? I seriously LOL at it. I think every singer is unique in their way. Lady Gaga's song, I never get sick of it. Still listening with my heart. Okay, I switch my tumblr blog to, http://kissthekitten.tumblr.com Stupid, I think it's lame, but cute! Potz rocks! Agree with me anot?! Potz! Haha! Pearllynn, cheerup. I'm always here remember? I'm here, my ears are opened widely for you. My arms are wide open for you, to cry on. Though I can't help myself, but I can still help. You're perfect in my eyes, the best. Russian Roulette.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
Okay, I think everytime I sleep. I'll dream, and this time, was a nightmare. For 1 week, I've been having nightmares. Please, someone just melt the ice, me. Hear the beat of my heart. Hear me, can you hear me crying? I'm terrified. Yesterday night, I ate sleeping pills to let myself sleep. It was a different nightmare. And it's the scariest nightmare. Okay, stop it. I'm determined to fast tomorrow. Don't tempt me any longer. Tonight, I'm going make it alright. I noticed something, no one had hear me screaming. thank you
I'm seriously touched by what Pearllynn says.Really. http://lynnology-life.blogspot.com A friend like her, it's hard to find. Really hard. I bottle up everything, in the end, emotional outburst. Yesterday, I was emotionless. It doesn't seem like me, so quiet. Yesterday wasn't a great day for me. I'm really thankful to True friend and Pearllynn. For encouraging me so much. She's the only person who is true to me right now. She's willing to share my burden. Thank you, Pearllynn. It was just a beautiful nightmare, GAGA
Sunday, December 6, 2009
I'm so digging it, sicko!I'm so obsessed over Lady Gaga. If I hit my MusicPlayer, the first song I'll go it's her, BAD ROMANCE, ALEJANDRO, DANCE IN THE DARK SONG, sicko right?! I wanted her Heartbeats earpiece. It's hard to find, I think? Using my instinct, I think it'll cost a bomb! Dr Dre. somemore, of course. Okay, I'm so digging it. I want her THE FAME MONSTER album! Anyone sponsor me? :) Haha! I'm just a human with feelings, I'm really harmless. I'm just a normal person, who don't wanna get hurt. I just need someone to listen to me right now. I just need someone to hear my cry. I just need someone to lend me a shoulder. I just need someone to understand how I feel. I just need someone to just tell me that they'll be there for me. You
Saturday, December 5, 2009
I don't wanna leave a legacy of hurt but LOVE.This is somewhat a new phrase for me. I'm kinda tired today. Worn out these few days. Kept sleeping. Argh! If you don't like my attitude, scram! Who are you to judge me? Okay, I think I should not scold vulgarities -.- Who are you to stop me from being who I am. Service was quite okay. Well, it's a less crowd in the cellgroup. 5 of them went overseas. Kinda little, but fun! I just wanna go to bed now. But I can't. She's been crying for days, I can't sit back and relax. She's there for me, and I'm there for her. If you chain your life for me, I will give you back a 100 times. If you wanna die, take me along, for you had once did the same to me. If you wanna cry, I'll lend you my shoulders. Bye! Pissed, are you?
Friday, December 4, 2009
Firstly, Don't worry, I'm not changing. I'm just pissed. Secondly, I don't wanna judge, I am special for who I am. Thirdly, I'm just gonna be who I am. It may seem a little bit attitude here. But I'm serious. I don't know what you think. But I'm just gonna be Estelle. That's why I'm called Estelle. I'm going Gaga over Gaga. Again?! I don't want to leave a legacy of hurt but love. -Pearllynn'M&M Lover! Let it out
Is it human nature, can someone just answer me? I don't wanna know the truth. Hidehidehide! Hide everything from me. I don't wanna know a single thing. The more I know, the more pain, it is. My true friend, answer me will you? I don't get it! I JUST WANNA GO MIA FROM THIS WORLD. I don't give a single damn to everything that is happening. Tonight, I'm not gonna make myself cry. I'm gonna make myself scream. I wanna let everything out. I don't care! FUCK! Life's a b!tch! After bearing it so many months, I finally let it out. -.- 3.32am, 4th December
What an ass. It's like 3.32am now. And I'm not sleeping -.- OMG, I really look like an egyptian now. Okay, shut up, estelle! Pearllynn is so mushy to the max manzxzxzx! 'Mine's forever!' I seriously LOLOLOLOL at it. Pearllynn, cheerup, girl! Obsessed with Lady Gaga now. I'm going Gaga over Gaga nowadays. Do you agree with me? Definitely. I've got a compliment here. Zachary said that I sing like Lady Gaga, when I sing the song, Bad Romance! Even Beautiful Dirty Rich, Just Dance & etc. P/S, VULGAR CONVERSATION. Conversation between TM and ME. TM: What the fuck!!! why did you go rebond? Estelle: -.- so fierce for what, ASSHOLE! TM: You bueysong uh?! Still can give me that diao face. Smile somemore :) I whack your ass. Estelle: You don't have ass meh? Need whack my ass?! TM: Baiji estelle! Estelle: BANANA TM luh you! XD ATM Machine TM: Going sleep, chat tmrw. TM was feeling abit bushuang huh. Thanks for the joke, girl! You rock like HELL! Pearllynn, M&M lover
Thursday, December 3, 2009
P/s, Pearllynn, I'm touched. Estelle M&M lover! I copied from her blog. http://lynnology-life.blogspot.com Lullaby
Hey, Readers. Editted my blogcodes, well, I like this blogskin. Not really a busy schedule, Rotting at home. Reminiscing about the past. I feel like changing my URL, OH MY! No way man! I love white, cranberry white! REDREDRED. I just polished my nails yesterday. Because I wanted to get RED nails. Black, maybe? Or prefer green? LOL! Thanks, my true friend for talking to me last night. We are similar in character. And interesting in some ways. Talking about some random stuff. Sweetdreams, Hoax me to sleep, my lullaby. Seeing the stars in the sky, a tear fell. I fell right to the ground, and cry, silent screams. My throat is abit dry & soar. I scream like a squirrel. Don't look back
Wednesday, December 2, 2009
I deleted all my post. I don't want to look back anymore. I don't want to feel hurt again. The scars will be there forever Thank you so much, Fiona! You understands me the best.
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