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There's this lady, whom everyone knows, she has an outgoing personality. Her sweet smile brightens everyone's day. When you fall, she'll be there to catch you. This lady doesn't look pretty, but it's her smile and her pure gold heart that makes her pretty.

Argh! What a day. I screwed my semi-finals.

Was suppose to serve detention, in the end, sang till 4++.

Today was quite a peace day, but I carry a heavy heart.

I couldn't concentrate, after the outbreak of the news, last night, I slept at 5.12am.

Early in the morning waking up @ fucking 7.22am :(

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Music lesson, watch SOR, School of rock \m/

*Rock that body, c'mon c'mon, rock that body, ohhh~*

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Skipskip, after school, met with Chindi with her friends.

Yunqian, Tammy and I don't know who, LOL! :)

Rehearse and went up, I'm the 2nd one.

I FORGET MY LYRICS. WHAT THE.

After that at 4pm, I went in again, and it's a fail again.

I guess, I really fail at it.

Okay, goodbye.

Very tired.

Very upset.

Very angry.

Feeling depressed.

I cried myself to sleep last night. I couldn't get a grip on myself.

Everything that happen during october and november last year crushed me into pieces.

Shag life. Seriously.

Ever since the day I met her, shag life.

You, you this fucking retard, I don't mean to scold you, take it as a joke if you want. But I'm posting for all I fuck care. Asshole, I don't give a single fucking shit to this. I got no means, I got no rights. But I want to say how I feel just for this fucking once.

I cannot take it any longer. I don't know how much longer I can really stand.

I feel like giving up.

Throughout this past 6 months, I didn't see you.

YET! The moment I see your name, I break down.

I know I'm being stupid here. But why?

This things is killing me. I hate it, I hate it.

Tell me, what can I do? Nothing! Mudfuck shit this stupid thing.

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After hearing what you've said,

I don't know what else to say.

Because at that point of time,

I just feel like breaking down.

I keep thinking, will the same thing happen all over again?

I trust you no matter how much lies you've said. I still trust you.

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Shervel! I miss her! Craploads of shit.

I'm so gonna meet her up soon!

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Melinda, We chat or sms about how we feel and we understand each other the best.

(I'm not lying, seriously)

Okay, today's programme will be first come first serve basis xD

Okay, crap!

Okay, guitaring later on before heading to church.

I'm bored, gym later at night.

(Bejeweled Blitz for the pass 16 mins.)

Nothing else to say.

Okay, goodbye!

Post when I'm home.

Boring.

Yesterday was out. Today is HOMEWORK. Parents wouldn't let me out. Okay, fine.

I'm cursing at swearing at myself.

I hate myself.

I dislike myself.

I hate my bloody blood blood, I feel like squeezing my blood.

I hate my fats.

I hate my hair, I want my bangs LONG hair back.

I hate homework.

I hate being a human.

I hate being alive.

I hate feeling pain.

P.A.R.A.N.O.I.D. TOTALLY!

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Enough!

Okay, Suntec Citeyyyy yesterday. Just usual stuff.

I wouldn't wanna elaborate much.

Went with Joshua, with his B.L.A.C.K nails, it seems LOL. And I'm in pink.

Contact lenses does suit him, but I look like I wanna kill someone in green contacts man! :D

I'm friendly, :) LOL! Walked around, and bought NOTHING, as I've gone cashless.

It suck to be cashless, you know? :( I don't know what else to say. I'm just speechless now.

Oh ya! In the MRT train, it's like totally silence, from CITY HALL to JurongEast, and finally we talk. That long pause of silence make it seems that I'm talking to you with my heart. I don't know if you get it anot. Hey! That's cool. Headed home and just go bonkers, by singing. Mum got so irritated, because I sang for 2 hours.

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I just wanna stress on myself.

To tell myself, I should just shut my mouth up.

If I wanna be alone, just LEAVE.ME.ALONE. Don't make me go after you guys with SHUT UP.

When I dont' wanna talk means, I DON'T WANNA TALK. Stop all these.

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GYM.GYM.GYM today!

Omg, it's quite fun, Together with MICHELLENEO! OMGOMGOMG. 9636(!)

My twin number man! I'm still waiting for the day when my guitar come, 060310(!).

Why am I so despo?! LOL xD Randomness.

Waiting. Waiting. Waiting. I'm never tired of waiting.

Anyway, Gym today was totally fun, until after treadmill, I was totally scattered.

My bones seems like it wanna break and the 3 of us started crapping with each other.

I love crapping with Mathilda, she's on of those people who can make me smile at least.

99.99% alike to her. WHOAAAAA :D Okay. I haven't been typing so much for damn long.

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2D1N, it's quite a rush one though.

1st day was just full of boredom, 2nd day was like WHOA! I like it man!

I don't wanna talk about anything now.

Went gym with her today, burn calories man! Nice.

Talked crap and Hey! Weightlifting some kinda cool! LOL!

Guitaring later on.

Burn calories, burn calories, burn calories.

Somehow, My body is totally not aching, but my arms are.

In no mood at all. I can't feel anything, I just realised.

Thanks Valerie for cheering me up all these time.

She understands me the most.

This is a girl, don't worry.

Well, Hais :(

Estelle! Please, feel something. Feel.

F.E.E.L, but yet I can't feel happiness, no matter how much one can love or many,

I realised I can never love and feel love at all.

What had happened? Tell me :( Please.

I wanna forgive you, girl. But I couldn't. I can't bear myself, I feel like killing myself because of you. I feel like slapping myself for being to stupid to have trusted you. I feel so STUPID.

You can imagine is like today, I kept guitaring.

Can't wait to get my hands on it.

Yesterday, I went out of the house at 1.30pm, went to look for Mathilda and Huishan.

Aftermath, went CarlsJunior for lunch, beefchillicheese fries! Yummy! *thumbsup*

Waited till 3.15, Joshua came, went to Peninsula Plaza to get my guitar.

Well didn't get enough monehhhhhh ): Bought a package one, $135, it's a bargain, okay?!

Walked to CityLinkMall and Suntec, yawzxzxzxzxzx! Brought back alot of memories.

Day when I got my guitar, must remember! This is what Joshua say. 060310(!) LOL!

My guitar got birthdate one lehhhhhh! xD Okay, train-ed back and took bus.

Today, GUITAR ALL THE WAY.

Did a little revision. Suckkkkk! :( I cannot remember a SINGLE THING!

Man!

Whatever, a boring post ya.